October 2010
September 2010
satisfaction: day 8
um…a day that i was satisfied with my life. there’s been a variety of those lately. where my day is just fantastic…when i know my dad and sister are happy. when its a good day at work. and probably got a really nice drink from starbucks. and also going to the house to see aaron and the people i love to be with. to top the day off is just a few simple things…
when he holds...
gemini: day 7
hm…gemini. i actually did some research a few weeks ago cuz it was the topic that interests me that night. (yeah, i study things for fun now…lame yes?) and i never knew that the gemini is a mortal and an immortal. both born with two different fathers. one of them is the sibling of Helen…from troy. and the mom was kinda a low key whore, two fathers? two set of children..hm i guess...
donna: day 6
i think the world is different than what people in the past expected…i agree
i like crew neck sweaters alot…but i don’t have one
hmm…my dreams usually turn out bad
i underestimate myself alot
i have really low self esteem…sorry
i say sorry alot
i love all my close friends
i think fluffy clouds are cute
haha smoking weed makes me laugh…but it won’t...
suicide?: day 5
this is a fragile topic…and i rather not discuss this on an online blogging site. but i pray for those who think that the world hates them so much that they would take their own life…its not a intelligent resolution & i seriously don’t think that’s beneficial to anyone, it just makes it all bad.
just a thought-off topic
last night i tucked my sister in her new...
Church: day 4
today i went to church and no offense to the people who are in charge of mass but i just felt awkward and i wasn’t feelin it. no pun. i just feel like church shouldn’t be an obligation but your own choice. and lately it hasn’t been my choice and it don’t feel right. i want to go to church to hear the praising and the respect for the Lord…instead its a downbeat...
poison: day 3
alright. i know we all tried drugs and alcohol before in our lives just out of plain curiosity. some of us chose to continue and others chose to sustain or only do it occasionally. alcohol is fine to me just as long as you know your limits cuz if you don’t then its a whole other story. i wouldn’t want anyone to be an alcoholic or go to the hospital for alcoholic poisoning. cuz that...
10 years: day 2
hopefully i’ve graduated college by then, had a degree and a good major, even maybe going to more school. also hopefully im financially balanced, have a good home, maybe even married, and maybe had a child. but it feels awkward just thinking about that. there’s the 10 yr reunion for highland too! i’d like to see everyone all changed and successful LOL.
taken: day one.
hrm. its wierd how that night came out to be. i was with the Romano’s celebrating new years. then, all of sudden i was at the east side completely blank from a question i had to answer. with no sleep and loads of advice, i made a decision.
…now…8-9 months later..im holding his hand, im hugging him longer than i should, i crave for his company all the time, i desire his kiss...
september
september, you’ve given me a lot of firsts.
first job
first card
first account
first time defending
first super really bad hurtful fight
first time i realized…
first time i ever EVER wanted to hurt a stranger. soo bad.
first paycheck
first time not celebrating my mom’s birthday with my mom “/
first time with weed
first food rampage…horrible lol.
first time...
Happy Birthday
Lola, i miss you sooo much. life is hard without you here with our family….seems like everyone hates each other. but at least i know your watching over us and we’re resolving our problems. thank you lola even though you’re not alive, i still feel like you’re here. always and forever. take care. Happy 78th Birthday. I love you.
just feeling kinda….empty lately. i don’t have an idea what the problem is. i definitely feel like i’ve lost my way. i’ve lost a variety of people in just a few months too. what the fxck is that? and in my head, im just thinking “don’t show any negativity…don’t show one slight of sadness”….just feels like everything is piling up, like its...
letter.
in all honesty aaron sometimes i forget how much you really do care, which is why i guess sometimes you question numerous things about my unintentional actions…im sorry again…like if i could see you right now i would just poor out all the apologies in the world. i love how you constantly strive to see me happy…and everytime im not happy don’t worry its not about you i...
definition.
to be honest. im scared to say that word now…but i have many theories about it. although, i rather not lists the theories. i guess i’ll just keep waiting…
what we do.
hm, usually when we’re together its always with our friends. and we just chill like the old days. except now whenever im near him, he pulls me over just for me to be closer to him. and whenever he’s standing alone i can hug him from behind LOL. but when we are alone we talk about stuff, watch tv, fool around, get each other to smile somehow. LOL. idkk, the usual.
last time.
hm last time we hung out was yesterday. after work aaron called me to eat lunch with him and then later on that night i went to the east and chilled there. played a little wpong. HAHAA. watched him and yama get ring of fire’d ahahahaha. thank you josh and nikkooo! too funny and a very nice view.. me and lisa had a good time watching. good day overall (:
a list.
i like how he talks alot
i like how whenever we’re alone the first thing he does is hold me
i like how he could eat so much and not care
i like how he talks a different language…makes him that much more attractive
i like his taste in music
i like how he kept all the cards i made him, even before we dated
i like how he always wants me to be happy
i like how safe i feel whenever...
5 facts
he texts ”tell me when you’re home babe” all the time after i leave, something that i love alot about him cuz i know he cares.
these technology business and complicated acronyms and crazy hardware megabite whatever stuff….he knows so much. so basically he’s pretty smart.
his body obviously didn’t form overnight. he worked hard which means he’s...
